In just one week I’ve had 2200 views, that is freaking nuts!

Not that it matters, the only thing that matters is what it has done for my soul so far.

It has probably been one the best week that I have had in 6 months. I haven’t taken any medication in a week now, I thought that I needed them but this week has shown me that possibly I don’t. My chest tightness has eased, my appetite has returned and I don’t want to sleep 24 hours a day! Although my late nights are back it’s not too much issue during school holidays 🤣

My brain literally thinks SO much, at times it’s been a bit racy but actually fairly controlled. If you’ve ever lived with anxiety you’ll understand what I mean!

Had a few bad dreams with perp in it but I haven’t felt too bad waking up from them so I guess that’s progress!

When I write my feelings out I feel like they are removed from my brain, I guess not forever but it’s as if I’m processing them then clicking that publish button just kind if finalises it if that makes any sense?

I’ve had so many lovely messages of support which truly means the world. I used to be very ashamed but now I’m not, I’m just proud.

I’ve also had several messages from women who had read it and are finding courage to leave their own abusive relationships. This is truly incredible, though it shatters my heart. Particularly when it’s people I know, some I had sort of guessed anyway but to have it confirmed hits me hard. I genuinely wouldn’t wish it on anyone, I also don’t wish it on perps partner or future partners, if anything I feel incredible sorry for them and I just pray that it isn’t as bad.

No matter who you are, what stage your in know that I will be there to support you. If you need advice or help, or even to scream shout and rant I am here.

The day I can say I helped someone be free will be the biggest achievement of my life.

I feel fairly relaxed and quite hopeful, I think I’m finally beginning to look forward instead of back.

I also want to thank my friends for pushing me to do the blog, I love you all so very dearly ❤

Until next time,

B xxx