I’m feeling pretty emosh right now but that’s only because I think for the first time since leaving I actually finally feel free.

It has literally been the toughest journey of my life but I did it, I ACTUALLY FUCKING DID IT.

For such a long time I was ashamed, but now I’m not. I’m just proud. I’m actually so proud of myself and I’m so proud of my kids. They may not understand fully now but one day they will, and they’ll know just how much mummy loves them and what I’m willing to do to protect them and give them the best and most loving life possible.

Over the last few days I feel like a weight has lifted from my shoulders, I know I’m not at the end yet but there is a light at the end of the tunnel now that I couldn’t see before.

As always a huge thank you to my family and friends for always supporting me and keep me going, without you I would be lost.

Already I have been contacted by several women going through DA and i may be imagining it but I’m seeing alot of posts now on my Facebook that i didn’t see before.

Let me tell you now that if you need someone to talk to, I am here for you 100% whether you have left yet or not.

If I can do it, so can you because nobody deserves a life like that.

And please, don’t read this and be sad for me. I want you to be proud.

Now I must put this phone down but I am doing so with a huge emosh grin on my face ❤

I’m also going to leave you with a quote from one of my fav songs..

When you gave away the love we gave you,

You don’t want a soul to save you,

I’ll never stop I’m not giving in.

I’ll climb the walls that slowly cage you,

Break the chains that you can’t break through,

I’ll never stop I’m not giving in.

I’m not giving in.

Until next time,

B xxx

3 thoughts on “Just a quick one…”

  1. Wow so proud of you that you left and that you are willing to help others going through the same thing.
    I finally left after he threw me down a flight of stairs and bashed my head against the floor numerous times. This was the real first physical attack but I lived five years through controlling and manipulating behaviour, sometimes subtle, sometimes downright cruel. Everyday was liking walking on eggshells. I wanted to leave many times but never felt strong enough. In hindsight this attack may be the blessing I needed so I may have spent another five years trying to escape.
    Even though it’s all still raw as only been 10 days and sometimes I wonder if I should drop the charges, I’m starting to really see what he was and what he did.
    I hope one day I feel as free as you do. Thank you for sharing your story as it’s certainly helped me.
    All the best. Stay safe and happy.
    Sarah

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    1. Please please do not drop the charges, I promise you you can get through this. It isn’t easy, if anything it’s going to get a little rougher but you will never regret it. Stay no contact just keep pushing forward!!! There’s been days when I thought I just cannot do this anymore, but I’m finally listening to my gut and trusting myself and you will too. Honestly I am always here just please keep going ❤❤❤🙄

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